Baywatch star Jeremy Jackson opens up about troubled ex-wife Loni Willison and her downward spiral into life on the streets

When photos of once-glamorous Loni Willison emerged showing her surviving connected the streets and dumpster diving successful 2018, nary 1 was much shocked than her ex-husband – Baywatch prima Jeremy Jackson.

At that point, Jackson had not seen her for 4 years, having steered wide since an explosive argument culminating successful a 911 telephone that enactment the last nail into the coffin of their two-year marriage.

‘Losing her was similar the decease of somebody, and I tried to bring her backmost and I couldn't, said Jackson, opening up for the archetypal clip astir the events that led to the extremity of his marriage, successful an exclusive interrogation with DailyMail.com . 

'The pistillate I was successful emotion with is gone, and whoever she is mentally present is not who I knew.'

Jackson, 44, said it took him 2 years to get implicit his grief astatine the nonaccomplishment of ‘the emotion of my life’ who helium had desperately tried to assistance arsenic she spiraled into intelligence unwellness and addiction.

He paints a bleak representation of their last twelvemonth unneurotic which, arsenic helium tells it, saw her go progressively paranoid, suffering anxiousness attacks and hallucinations which near her convinced that helium was the enemy.

Their last confrontation went viral aft she released a signaling of it successful 2015 and marked the commencement of a play successful which helium deed stone bottom: sunk successful a depression implicit the extremity of his marriage, enduring torrents of maltreatment online and inactive battling his ain drug and alcohol demons.  

Now cleanable and moving arsenic a fittingness manager and sober mentor for different recovering addicts, Jackson told however helium spent thousands connected assorted medicine and took Loni to therapy sessions – adjacent regularly attending religion with her successful a bid to assistance her heal.

But it was each to nary avail. Jackson said: ‘I mislaid the emotion of my life. I mislaid the lone pistillate I've ever projected to, the lone pistillate I've ever wanted to marry.

‘I'm 44-years-old. I inactive person not projected oregon wanted to wed anyone else. 

'She was my choice, the lone prime I ever made, and I mislaid it.' 

Despite his efforts to assistance her, Jackson claims she had tried to technologist a ‘hostile takeover’ of his finances, swindling thousands of dollars and having his car enactment successful her sanction earlier helium realized.

She besides began secretly signaling him – including the infamous portion of the 2014 bust up which ended with her calling the cops and accusing him of attempted murder.

Jackson said: ‘She acceptable maine up and started screaming that I was hurting her erstwhile I did thing to her.

‘There are nary infirmary records. There are nary doc bills. There are nary X-rays determination are nary pictures. She attacked maine portion recording, screaming, ‘you're hurting me’.’

That was the past clip helium saw her. ‘I person not seen her since that day,’ helium told DailyMail.com. ‘I went done the biggest slump of my beingness for 2 years after.

‘For 2 years I was successful and retired of rehabs, crying, doing grief and nonaccomplishment counseling, penning goodbye letters to her, doing heavy therapeutic psychiatric enactment due to the fact that I mislaid the emotion of my life.’ 

Jackson, who starred arsenic David Hasselhoff’s lad successful the 90’s blockbuster show, is nary alien to the ravages of intelligence unwellness and addiction, which successful his case, included a crystal meth wont that took clasp earlier helium was adjacent aged capable to bargain a brew successful a bar.

‘I had the astir overprotective parent connected the look of the planet,’ helium said of his azygous ma Jolana Dunn.

‘She loves maine beyond words. She sent backstage investigators aft me, she called the cops connected me. She would wage friends to effort to bent retired with me, to support an oculus connected me.

‘She tried hard. But erstwhile somebody's caput is made up that they privation to bash that, that they privation to party, that they privation to bash drugs, that they privation to get high, there's thing you could do.’

By the clip helium near Baywatch successful 1999 aged conscionable 18, helium was a full-blown meth addict who had already been successful and retired of rehab 4 times.

The pursuing year, helium was arrested by undercover cops with 2 duffel bags containing items utilized to navigator crystal meth and recovered himself jailed for 90 days and past backmost successful rehab for his 5th stint.

It was into this mix, 2 years later, came Loni Willison, past aged 19. At the time, she was moving arsenic a porn prima and a stripper according to her erstwhile husband.

‘I met Loni erstwhile I was 21. She was 19,’ Jackson said. ‘Loni was a porn star, a 19-year-old miss being utilized for wealth connected video.'

‘I was successful emotion with her for her spirit, that magic energy, that peculiar thing, that psyche connection.

‘I saw that successful her and it broke my bosom that she was surviving successful the satellite of porn. But I was lone 21.

‘I was a young kid. I was sober, and she drank each the time. I wanted to assistance her, and my bosom broke for her.’

The smitten brace went connected to day for 4 years but the narration foundered implicit her refusal to springiness up her porn career.

Jackson says Loni, who was raised successful Hemet, California, past moved to Las Vegas, wherever she continued successful porn and stripping.

‘I mislaid interaction with her,’ Jackson said. ‘My beingness got better. Her beingness got worse. But she enactment herself backmost together.’

After 4 years apart, the brace reconnected aft she discontinue porn, got sober and went backmost to schoolhouse – portion ‘only stripping connected the weekends’.

The present 41-year-old besides opened up to him astir her past, which included a succession of convulsive drug-addicted boyfriends, including 1 that had forced her into her aboriginal porn work.

He said: ‘That broke my heart. I wanted to beryllium the quality for her. I didn't enactment the porn. I didn't enactment the stripping. I didn't deliberation that was sexy oregon cool.

‘I felt similar that was destructive to her spirit. But I didn't unit her oregon archer her she had to stop. She's got to marque her ain choices. We each do.’

Jackson added: ‘I was doing truly good successful my beingness astatine the time, and I thought, I've made unspeakable decisions successful my past.

‘I've been dirty. I've done crime, I've done drugs. I've lied. I've cheated, I've stolen. That's each she did. Just lying to herself, cheating, stealing, conscionable dirty, doing drugs, ashamed of herself, debased self-esteem. Parents didn't emotion her enough. Boyfriends bushed her up.

‘I wanted to heal this woman. I loved her.’

The 2 began dating again and yet joined successful 2012. Jackson, who had go affluent disconnected the backmost of his acting career, paid disconnected her pupil debts and went connected to lavish her with wealth and help.

That included putting her connected a repast plan, paying for laser attraction to region scars connected her look and dental enactment to regenerate teeth damaged by drugs.

He besides helped her to go a certified esthetician and utilized his Hollywood contacts to get her enactment arsenic a fittingness model.

‘All of these interviews wherever they accidental she was a model, that's not what she was,’ Jackson explained.

‘I got her into magazines. I got her into fitness. She didn't bash that earlier me. I helped her modulation from porn and stripping to being a nonrecreational exemplary and a fittingness competitor. I helped her.’

But portion Jackson was capable to assistance steer her distant from drugs and porn, helium wasn’t adjacent to dealing with her deteriorating intelligence health, which successful the last twelvemonth of their matrimony included worsening panic attacks, hallucinations and breakdowns.

He told DailyMail.com: ‘She was proceeding things. She was seeing things, and she was accusing maine of things that were wholly delusional. She would person monolithic breakdowns, panic attacks.

‘She would travel location from work, crying, frightened she was going to stab idiosyncratic astatine the doctor's office.’

Jackson says helium tried everything helium could deliberation of to assistance her, including taking her to therapy sessions, going to religion unneurotic and spending thousands of dollars connected medications helium hoped would help.

Unknown to him, however, helium claims Loni was stealing from him. ‘She secretly took my sanction disconnected the cars due to the fact that we were married,’ helium said.

‘She changed my billing code with the IRS and was trying to get loans and taxation returns to a antithetic code alternatively of mine.

‘She was trying a hostile takeover of my finances without maine knowing.

When matters came to a caput implicit his arrest, which was initially connected attempted execution charges but ended with him accepting a caution, Jackson says helium blamed himself for what had happened – sparking an extended play successful therapy.

He had nary thought what had go of Loni but pictured her having a bully beingness lone for that to crumble erstwhile photos emerged successful 2018 showing her surviving rough.

‘When I saw the pictures online was the archetypal clip I realized what had happened,’ helium told DailyMail.com.

‘I was bittersweet due to the fact that I pictured her retired determination happy, blessed with the car she stole from maine and the wealth she stole from me, surviving her champion life.

‘Then I saw her and I said, ‘oh my God’. I had wanted her and maine to person a fairytale outcome. I couldn't let myself to spot that she was really insane.’

Loni, who is inactive stateless and surviving successful Venice Beach, has repeatedly declined offers of assistance and shelter, astir precocious successful an brushwood with photographers a week ago.

Friends person besides tried to assistance portion Jackson told DailyMail.com helium would assistance her successful a flash if she ever asked for it.

‘My institution InnerG Wellness has alliances with the champion sober companions, the champion psychiatrists, the champion retreats, women's support, battered women's shelters, you sanction it,’ helium said.

‘My Rolodex, my entree is astatine her disposal. My lone absorption successful life, my lone ngo successful beingness is to person the answers for radical erstwhile they're ready.’

Along with his institution and different task of his called Balanced Man which offers residential wellbeing retreats, Jackson is presently starring connected Hulu deed After Baywatch: Moment successful the Sun alongside his on-screen dada Hasselhoff.

He has, helium told DailyMail.com, nary existent tendency to instrumentality to acting unless a spectacular portion came up – and 1 that doesn’t clash with his passionateness for mentoring erstwhile addicts similar himself.

But contempt the ups and downs and the tragic fallout from his matrimony to Loni, Jackson says it was worthy it to go the antheral helium is today.

‘Whatever it took to get here, I wouldn't alteration it,’ helium said. ‘If it would alteration what I americium and what I bash and what I person now, I wouldn't spell backmost and alteration anything.’