I feared I’d be replaced if I took time off after my baby, says Sian Welby as she reveals how she nearly died on screen

THIS Morning presenter Sian Welby has revealed she lone took 3 months disconnected pursuing the commencement of her babe arsenic she enactment ­pressure connected herself to instrumentality to work.

Speaking exclusively to The Sun connected Sunday, the 38-year-old admits that aft landing her imagination vocation connected TV and radio astatine Capital FM, she was disquieted astir taking clip retired erstwhile she became a first-time mum.

In a searingly honorable interview, Sian — whose girl Ruby with vigor shaper Jake Beckett was calved successful June — besides said she has struggled with “dark thoughts” and “mum guilt” which near her swinging betwixt crying with exhaustion and feeling similar Superwoman.

She said: “I disquieted I would beryllium disconnected for a period and they would determine idiosyncratic other is amended and past they would regenerate me. Those are the acheronian thoughts you have.

“It’s astir apt what enactment maine disconnected ­earlier successful my beingness adjacent reasoning astir having kids, due to the fact that I thought, ‘How could I?’.

“I deliberation astir women successful the TV manufacture volition admit you get a spot tense astir having clip disconnected to person a baby, particularly if you person conscionable worked your full beingness to get wherever you are, which I have.

“I took 3 months successful the end, which wasn’t precise long, but for maine that is the longest I’ve ever been disconnected enactment and I afloat embraced it.”

Sian has cemented herself arsenic 1 of the brightest stars successful TV and radio, co-hosting the Capital Breakfast Show with Jordan North and Chris Stark.

Already a regular connected the showbiz conception of This Morning, she made her debut arsenic a co-host with Dermot O’Leary successful January past year.

And she reveals her fears of being replaced were unfounded and bosses “could not person been much supportive”.

Sian said: “I deliberation it’s starting to change. There is much enactment and acceptance that we tin person babies, but we tin travel backmost and inactive beryllium implicit bosses and we tin inactive bash the occupation conscionable arsenic well, if not better.

“I felt precise fortunate that I was with a institution and a squad that couldn’t person been much supportive astatine This Morning and Capital.

"The connection was, ‘Come backmost erstwhile you’re ready. We emotion you, but instrumentality clip off’.

“I turned disconnected the vigor and didn’t truly ticker telly and alternatively truly enjoyed being with Ruby.”

And her chap This Morning stars person each looked retired for her.

Sian said: “Cat Deeley and Dermot O’Leary dainty maine similar a small sister — they’ve each looked aft maine and taken maine nether their wing.

“I retrieve the archetypal week I ­presented with Dermot, helium kept ­telling maine to pb the interviews.

“­Alison Hammond sends maine the astir beauteous messages and dependable notes, and she’ll ever springiness maine other clip if I’m doing a small segment. They’re conscionable a beauteous team.”

Cat and erstwhile This Morning ­presenter Holly Willoughby — who viewers person compared her to — are Sian’s TV “idols”.

She said: “I grew up watching some of them. Holly has ever been truthful lukewarm and affable to me.

“When I was connected This Morning with her and doing showbiz segments, she made maine consciousness truthful astatine ease.

“I was tense erstwhile I archetypal started determination due to the fact that it’s specified a large show.

“Holly is astonishing for doing unrecorded TV time successful and time out, truthful immoderate examination to her is an implicit compliment.

“I retrieve walking down the ­corridors astatine enactment years agone and seeing the presenters’ photos connected the wall.

"I thought, ‘One time I privation my photograph connected that partition — I’d emotion to beryllium a presenter connected this show’. And past past twelvemonth it happened. Seeing my representation connected the partition blew my small mind.”

Nottingham-born Sian was moving astatine High Street manner store New Look erstwhile she began auditioning for TV jobs.

In 2010, she landed her large interruption arsenic the Channel 5 ­weather presenter aft she was spotted successful a telly advert.

She has since jetted circular the satellite hosting Channel 5’s ­Formula E: Street Racers amusement astir electrical car racing successful 2017, arsenic good arsenic Goodwood’s Speed Week for ITV alongside Dermot.

Sian is besides a societal media prima whose comedy ­weather forecasts racked up 10million views.

Incredibly, Sian has had respective near-death experiences astatine work.

‘I cried implicit a sandwich’

She revealed: “I was presenting astatine the broadside of the way connected Formula E and the cameraman saved maine by pulling maine to the broadside arsenic a car whizzed down me.

“Then a fewer years agone I astir died successful beforehand of Timothee ­Chalamet.

"I was interviewing him for Wonka and was stuffing marshmallows successful my rima and I astir choked connected them. I had to cough them each up. I came backmost with streaming eyes and a agleam reddish face.

“It was truthful embarrassing. The full squad genuinely had a spot of a panic.”

While she has besides had countless “pinch me” moments, Sian says her feet are firmly connected the ground, adding: “I’m trying to unrecorded successful the moment.”

But she admits beingness arsenic a moving mum is simply a continual juggling act.

She said: “Some days it’s unthinkable and you think, ‘Oh my God, I truly tin bash it all’.

“You consciousness similar Superwoman. I think, ‘This is great, I’m winning astatine life’.

“And past each it takes is 1 hiccup oregon 1 other occupation and I’ve astir had a tense breakdown. I’ve cried implicit a ham sandwich successful a screening due to the fact that I’ve been exhausted.

"It lone took Ruby to beryllium poorly and for maine to beryllium getting up each nighttime to propulsion maine implicit the edge.

“I effort to bash it all, and immoderate days I smash it and different days I privation to curl up successful a shot and outcry into a bucket of ice cream.

“But talking to different parents, you realise that everyone is exhausted, everyone’s winging it — truthful the much I speech to different parents, the much I conscionable consciousness better.”

Sian expresses “a consciousness of pridefulness successful being capable to support working”, but admits to occasional worries implicit spending clip with her daughter.

She said: “Some days, I americium getting it incorrect and the equilibrium isn’t determination and past the mum guilt kicks successful and I interest that I’ve not seen her enough.

"But I cognize erstwhile she’s older I tin thatch her that girls tin bash immoderate they privation and I tin beryllium a bully influence.

“I tin archer her that I was doing each of this huffy worldly erstwhile she was a babe and we survived and we got done it.

“I’m hopefully going to rise a truly beardown small miss who’s going to beryllium up determination with the boys doing immoderate she wants.”

Sian besides admits that she has recovered a caller assurance successful her body, adjacent showing disconnected her bump successful an underwear shoot, and didn’t consciousness nether unit post-partum to “snap back”.

She said: “I’ve ne'er felt much comfy successful my ain tegument than erstwhile I was pregnant.

“I thought I was going to hatred it, arsenic I’ve ne'er been that assured astir my body.

“But erstwhile I was pregnant, ­suddenly I had this assurance to bash a afloat photoshoot successful my underwear.

“Since having Ruby, I’ve conscionable benignant of gone backmost to my comfy weight, I deliberation due to the fact that I person been truthful busy.

“Maybe it was a reset connected my full body, due to the fact that I wasn’t drinking alcohol, I was taking each these ­vitamins and I’ve ne'er felt truthful healthy.

“I’m trying to support that up — drinking h2o and cleanable living. Also, picking Ruby up is similar a weightlifting course!”

Due to her existent engaged schedule, Sian has temporarily enactment her plans to get hitched connected hold.

She said: “Ruby coming on benignant of scuppered a wedding.

“I’m conscionable astir managing to get dressed successful the greeting and remembering my bra, fto unsocial trying to program a wedding.

“But I bash emotion a enactment truthful I would similar to bash 1 astatine immoderate point.”

And her adjacent large nighttime retired volition beryllium the Brit Awards adjacent month. Sian was presenter for the event’s nominations amusement successful January.

She added: “People are already talking to maine astir after-parties.

“But I cognize by that constituent successful the evening I’ll conscionable privation to spell location and ticker Netflix successful bed.”

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