I joined OnlyFans at 19 and made £9,000 a month - but then I realised the shocking truth about the site

The miss successful the pictures is stunning: blonde hairsbreadth cascading implicit her shoulders; tanned tegument stretching crossed a toned stomach; rosebud lips pursed successful a cleanable pout.

But it is her eyes that onslaught you. For beneath the fluttering jet-black lashes, the girl’s eyes look empty, 2 heavy bluish pools staring blankly into space. This is – oregon rather, was, until conscionable 3 months agone – Rose Jones.

At 24, Rose was 1 of the apical British earners connected the big subscription tract OnlyFans, flaunting her bare assemblage for strangers online successful instrumentality for money.

While what she shared connected her nationalist societal media pages mightiness person seemed risqué, it was thing compared to the explicit images, videos and backstage enactment tapes (costing betwixt £15 and £50, and lasting up to 50 minutes) she made for her hundreds of subscribers.

Full-frontal nudity; enactment scenes with men, women oregon sometimes both; customized intersexual acts requested by her fans... determination was small she wouldn’t bash to boost her illustration – and her earnings.

Much similar chap OnlyFans prima Bonnie Blue, 25, whose sordid enactment of bedding 1,057 men successful 12 hours caused outrage past month, Rose couldn’t spot beyond the perks of the site.

Having joined the level aged 19, astatine her highest she was making up to £9,000 a month, capable to money a glittering manner of decorator clothes, luxury holidays and an costly London flat.

Independently wealthy, self-employed and enviably assured successful her ain tegument – overmuch of it connected show for strangers to lust implicit – Rose seemed to person it all.

‘The satellite was my oyster. Because of OnlyFans, I was this beauteous miss with loads of wealth to walk connected immoderate I wanted,’ she says.

‘If anyone judged what I was doing, I’d archer them to caput their ain concern – I was happy, empowered and enjoying each minute.’

Except that it was each a lie. Far from having the clip of her life, Rose was, she present admits, profoundly unhappy during astir of the 4 years she spent arsenic an OnlyFans star.

The acquisition near her battling crippling body-image issues, sent her intelligence wellness into an all-time debased and exposed her to aggravated unit to execute intersexual acts with which she was progressively uncomfortable.

Her communicative is indispensable speechmaking for immoderate young idiosyncratic who has been lured into believing OnlyFans is simply a accelerated way to riches, fame and contentment by the likes of Bonnie Blue and her rival Lily Phillips, who claimed she would soon movie contented adjacent much shocking than Blue’s ‘1,000-men’ stunt.

Because the facade that Rose Jones presented to the satellite was conscionable that – down which a susceptible young pistillate was hiding.

For a start, her sanction isn’t Rose; offline, she is Eve, a erstwhile creation pupil who lives successful Hampshire with her begetter and their 2 dogs.

Having discontinue the tract for bully past November, hers is present a cautionary communicative – revealing the full, unvarnished information astir OnlyFans.

‘My OnlyFans profile, Rose Jones, was similar a disguise I wore,’ Eve admits now. ‘It was a slippery slope; I started doing things I swore I’d ne'er bash erstwhile I started connected the site.

‘Very quickly, I went from bikini shots and topless pictures to afloat nudes. Then it was intimate scenes connected my own, past intimate things with different people.

‘I kept telling myself that I could bash better, that I could gain more.

‘But I mislaid myself successful the process of trying to go an OnlyFans occurrence story.’

The girl of a builder and an artist, Eve ne'er had aspirations to instrumentality her apparel disconnected for a living.

She dreamed of being originative similar her creator parent and, from a young age, she remembers them sloshing paints astir successful her workplace together.

But Eve’s parent fell sick erstwhile she was conscionable five. ‘Mum astir died of bosom crab then, but she went into remission for 10 oregon truthful years,’ she says.

‘Then, successful 2017, she got re-diagnosed. They realised the crab had dispersed to her bones.

‘Chemo wasn’t working, truthful they recovered a hormone pill that seemed to halt the tumours from increasing immoderate bigger. But the doctors warned america that, astatine immoderate point, this would halt working.’

Tragically, that time came successful 2020. Having moved location from Oxford Brookes University, wherever she was successful her archetypal twelvemonth of a grade successful good art, due to the fact that of the Covid-19 pandemic, Eve spent 4 precious months with her mum earlier she passed distant that July.

She had, successful fact, started her OnlyFans illustration already, having heard astir the level connected a podcast and signed up – mostly retired of curiosity – successful April 2020.

‘As it was the pandemic, I couldn’t get a mean job,’ she says. ‘At the time, I was a precise unfastened person, comfy with my sexuality.

‘As an creation student, I was blessed posing nude for others and drafting nudes of myself, truthful it felt similar a earthy progression. I didn’t caput my assemblage being connected show. I retrieve telling Mum astir this site, which radical seemed to beryllium making wealth from and asking what she thought astir maine trying my luck.

‘She said, “Go for it. If you deliberation it’s a bully idea, wherefore not?”’

Eve admits present that her mum, though supportive astatine the time, ‘probably wouldn’t person approved of however acold I went with OnlyFans’.

‘It’s weighed connected my caput for the past 4 years,’ she says.

‘She wasn’t astir to spot what it turned into, and I don’t deliberation she would person liked it – oregon who I became – astatine all.’

Racked with grief and trying to numb the pain, successful precocious 2020 Eve decided to springiness up her creation grade –which reminded her truthful overmuch of her creator parent – to ore connected OnlyFans.

‘I couldn’t spell backmost to studying creation aft Mum died,’ she says. ‘That was a truly hard decision; it was specified a immense portion of my life.’

Eve focused connected increasing her fanbase, posting raunchy videos connected TikTok and Instagram – wherever she has much than 50,000 followers – to hook radical in, earlier directing them to her OnlyFans relationship to subscribe.

She charged £14.99 a month, for which subscribers – each implicit strangers – could spot each her explicit content. But fans could besides petition idiosyncratic pictures, telephone calls and one-on-one videos. ‘I made £8,000 successful my archetypal 3 months,’ she says.

The requests ranged from intersexual to plain peculiar. One lawsuit asked her to melt an crystal cube connected her belly button; different asked her to extremity buckets of slime implicit her bare body. High connected occurrence and bare for more, she was blessed to bash thing they asked.

‘The wealth started pouring successful and, astatine first, it was amusive and exciting,’ Eve says. ‘I felt good. Strangers were complimenting my assemblage and telling maine however large I was. It was a mode for maine to debar my grief, to flight and go idiosyncratic else.’

Offline, her day-to-day beingness began to alteration to bespeak her online persona. Though her images – posing successful lacy lingerie, bikinis and figure-hugging leather – looked effortlessly thrown together, it was hard enactment down the scenes.

‘Some days I was moving up to 16 hours, from 9am to 1am, readying content, getting ready, filming, editing and past messaging fans,’ she says.

‘I ne'er took days disconnected – if you bash that, your popularity plummets – truthful it was a 24/7 job.’

She was, she admits, ‘addicted’ to OnlyFans, particularly the wealth she made from posting photographs and intersexual videos of herself successful compromising positions – astir 2,500 successful total.

As the wealth rolled in, nights successful astatine location turned into glitzy holidays to Mykonos and Ibiza and a penchant for Prada and Louis Vuitton handbags. But it each came astatine a cost. As evidenced by Bonnie Blue, who is conscionable 1 twelvemonth older than her, Eve says that arsenic much and much creators flock to OnlyFans, users consciousness the request to spell to shocking and sometimes horrifying lengths to basal out.

While she had started retired doing arty pictures and videos, her fans soon demanded more. By present making a surviving from OnlyFans, she was acutely alert her income depended connected them – truthful erstwhile they asked her to commencement making enactment tapes, she obliged.

At first, she admits, it felt similar a daring enactment of rebellion that gave her a thrill. But 1 explicit video soon led to another, past another, and immoderate ‘red lines’ Eve had initially laid down, denoting intersexual acts she wouldn’t do, soon vanished – for the close price.

‘Pretty soon I stopped enjoying myself,’ she admits.

She acknowledges that her occupation fundamentally reduced her to being a enactment entity for faceless strangers connected the net – thing she is little than arrogant of today.

And with accrued visibility came the trolls, who picked isolated her quality – from her chemoreceptor to her already tiny fig – until she felt she had nary prime but to alteration it.

‘I spent each waking hr trying to amended the polished, cleanable mentation of myself that radical wanted to wage for,’ she says.

In 2022, she had laser oculus surgery, followed by a chemoreceptor occupation a twelvemonth later. ‘I thought making my chemoreceptor smaller would marque maine much successful. It was the aforesaid with dieting; I thought if I mislaid weight, radical would similar maine more,’ she says. ‘It’s brainsick however rapidly I became truthful dissimilar myself. I started to consciousness numb.’

But it wasn’t conscionable her quality that was impacted. Reactions from those who knew the existent her were understandably mixed.

Surprising though it whitethorn sound, Eve’s begetter supported her OnlyFans vocation – ‘He conscionable wants maine to beryllium blessed and healthy’ – but not each household members were truthful accepting.

Her grandma called her a ‘porn star’ aft uncovering retired astir her work. ‘It wasn’t nice,’ Eve admits now. And, portion immoderate friends stuck by her, others drifted away.

‘I mislaid immoderate friendships due to the fact that I became this idiosyncratic that wasn’t maine immoderate more,’ Eve says. ‘I was excessively obsessed with myself and my ain career.’

Dating, too, was astir impossible. Potential partners were enactment disconnected the infinitesimal she mentioned OnlyFans, oregon expected her to beryllium idiosyncratic she wasn’t.

Even now, Eve struggles to conscionable radical due to the fact that she is acrophobic of being judged connected her past.

And arsenic we cognize lone excessively good successful this integer age, erstwhile an representation is shared online, determination is nary putting the genie backmost successful the bottle.

Despite stringent rules connected OnlyFans telling subscribers not to prevention oregon stock content, successful world this is intolerable to enforce.

‘I’ve had respective of my pictures and videos leaked implicit the years,’ says Eve.

‘Like astir creators, I’ve had to usage an outer bureau to get the leaked contented taken down from porn sites – though I’ve had to judge that thing tin genuinely beryllium deleted.’

Safety is besides a concern, with immoderate OnlyFans stars becoming the victims of stalking.

Eve recalls the measures she had to instrumentality erstwhile sharing contented truthful that nary of her fans could transverse the integer divide.

‘I was precise cautious astir my safety,’ she says. ‘I didn’t stock wherever I live, oregon instrumentality immoderate videos astir my location oregon wherever I was connected holiday, due to the fact that determination are immoderate unusual radical retired determination and I didn’t privation to instrumentality the risk.’

By aboriginal 2023, the scales started to autumn from her eyes.

‘This was the debased constituent of my intelligence health,’ Eve, who was by past taking antidepressants, admits.

‘It got to a constituent wherever I didn’t recognise who I was immoderate more. I was inactive making content, but it felt level – I was going done the motions.

‘Offline, I was going connected walks successful the rainfall and sitting nether a bridge, crying for hours. It was a truly acheronian time.’

She near the swanky London level she had bought with her OnlyFans net and moved location to beryllium with her dad.

Grief, which she hadn’t afloat processed aft losing her mum, deed her ‘like a tidal wave’.

‘I mislaid each my energy. I couldn’t get retired of bed,’ she says.

‘I retrieve sleeping connected the sofa, not being capable to locomotion up oregon down the stairs.’

She came disconnected antidepressants, which she says made her consciousness ‘numb’, and started seeing a therapist.

Then, successful November 2023, spurred connected by the clip and effort she had enactment into her OnlyFans illustration successful the past, she decided to springiness it 1 past go.

‘I knew it wasn’t the champion happening for my intelligence health, but I wanted to try,’ she says.

‘Quite quickly, it became evident that the wealth wasn’t similar it was before.’

Indeed, findings published this week showed that the mean creator made conscionable £1,291 successful 2023 – and that’s earlier OnlyFans, whose billionaire proprietor makes £1million a time from the site, takes its 20 per cent commission.

‘Other radical connected determination were doing much and much utmost things to marque money, and that wasn’t thing I was prepared to do,’ she says.

‘I realised that, adjacent if I made £50,000 the adjacent month, I wouldn’t beryllium happy. That’s erstwhile I knew it was clip to stop.’

In November past year, Eve called her dad, sobbing, telling him her bosom was nary longer successful it.

The adjacent day, she uploaded a connection for her subscribers – and discontinue OnlyFans for good.

Though she describes ‘a monolithic consciousness of relief’, she admits: ‘I clung to OnlyFans for truthful agelong due to the fact that it was each I’ve known for the past 4 years. I bash privation I’d stopped sooner.’

For now, her leafage remains progressive – ‘There were immoderate radical who had conscionable spent wealth connected it, and I felt blameworthy deleting it immediately’ – but she plans, successful the adjacent fewer months, to adjacent it down.

Shocking arsenic it whitethorn dependable to readers, Eve isn’t acrophobic that images of her bare body, oregon so videos of her performing explicit acts, whitethorn stay connected the net for ever.

For her generation, sexting, sending nudes and laying retired your beingness online are each portion of increasing up, she says – adjacent if her mentation was much utmost than most.

Today, she inactive has bully friends successful the OnlyFans world.

‘I person a batch of respect for everyone successful the industry,’ she says. ‘I cognize however hard it tin beryllium and I respect each who are beardown capable to woody with that – it conscionable wasn’t for me.’

However, she present believes that property limits should beryllium introduced to halt teenagers similar her from joining OnlyFans earlier they tin afloat recognize the implications.

‘I don’t deliberation you should beryllium allowed to enactment successful pornographic acts connected OnlyFans until you’re 21.

‘I deliberation 18 is excessively young to beryllium making decisions similar that.

‘When I started astatine 19, I thought I knew everything. I was truthful definite of myself, but present I realise I was inactive a child.’

Citing Bonnie Blue arsenic an example, she adds: ‘This full “barely legal” class of young men she targets is truly problematic. Encouraging this benignant of behaviour among younger adults is awful.’

To others considering a vocation similar hers, she urges them to spot the manufacture for what it truly is.

‘Make definite you cognize what you’re getting into. You person to beryllium beardown and hard-skinned due to the fact that it tin deterioration you down.

‘OnlyFans isn’t a amusive broadside hobby; to marque immoderate benignant of wealth you person to spell each in, and that takes a batch of clip and dedication.

‘Even then, there’s nary warrant you’ll beryllium successful. And it tin impact your aboriginal beingness choices.’

Now, looking to the future, erstwhile she hopes 1 time to commencement her ain business, she says: ‘With OnlyFans, I was trapped: each time was astir making money, looking the part.

‘Finally, I tin look guardant to the remainder of my beingness – not arsenic Rose, but arsenic Eve.’