I starved myself after being fat-shamed by an ex… now I finally know my curves are sexy, says MAFS star Holly Ditchfield

HOLLY DITCHFIELD has had a tumultuous thrust connected Married At First Sight.

But, contempt splitting from hubby Alex Henry, 28, and having their many clashes play retired connected Channel 4 screens - the 30-year-old mum tin inactive confidently accidental she's sexy.

The mates got disconnected to a large start, with Holly sharing that Alex helped her assemblage confidence, and made her consciousness "so beautiful" from the infinitesimal she woke up successful the morning.

However, aft being unhappy with the mode Alex spoke to different women successful the group, and with however helium dismissed her feelings erstwhile she said that she was missing her children, Holly decided to telephone it quits last week, with Alex pursuing suit.

Holly, who shares children Declan, 13, and Daisy nine, with a erstwhile partner, opened up exclusively to Fabulous astir her reasons for going connected the show.

"In past relationships, I person ever been told that I needed to suffer weight," she said.

"In 1 relationship, the feline said to me, 'Is determination thing you would alteration astir me?' And I said, No, I deliberation you're great. Why would I beryllium with you if I wanted to alteration thing astir you?'

"And I said, 'Would you alteration thing astir me?' And helium said, 'I conscionable privation you would suffer a spot of weight'."

Holly, who is from Manchester but present lives successful Huddersfield, revealed that she had lone been either a size 12 oregon a size 14 astatine the clip and had been surviving her "best life" earlier the cruel comment.

Sadly, his words deed Holly hard, and she began starving herself.

"I conscionable automatically stopped eating and got truly thin," she said.

"My friends started to propulsion maine up connected it, and told maine I looked truly unhealthy.

"I developed a spot of an eating upset and conscionable had a atrocious narration with food."

Thankfully, Holly was capable to get her assurance backmost aft realising that she didn't privation to settee for a antheral that wanted to alteration her.

She chopped each ties with the narration and "got Holly back."

"This is wherefore assemblage assurance is truthful large for me," she said.

"Men beryllium connected the net and say, 'Oh, I emotion curves. I emotion a woman's body'.

"But a existent woman's assemblage is simply a assemblage that has imperfections, has agelong marks, that wobbles successful definite ways erstwhile you locomotion oregon you laugh.

"And I emotion that astir myself, and the information that I emotion that astir myself enables maine to task myself arsenic sexy to a man."

Holly said that to assistance her to summation much confidence, she takes her imperfections and treats them arsenic a "sex factor."

"I look astatine my agelong marks and I deliberation they're tiger marks, it's giving fierce, it's giving feisty, it's giving I tin ruin your life."

She continued: "I besides emotion the information I've got a mum body, due to the fact that without that mum body, I wouldn't person the 2 astir beauteous children successful the satellite who I'm so, truthful arrogant of each azygous day."

Holly added that appearing connected Married At First Sight truly helped her to "love each part" of herself.

She said: "When you're astir 100 cameras a day, the cameras are going to prime up angles that you don't like.

"So I truly had to larn to emotion each portion of maine erstwhile I went connected MAFS, due to the fact that I knew determination would beryllium pictures that I don't truly similar of myself.

"I learned to person the 'I don't care' attitude. I emotion who I am, truthful it doesn't substance what anybody other thinks astir me."

She added that pursuing her quality connected MAFS, Holly has received countless messages from women, stating that her assemblage affirmative cognition has made them consciousness much assured successful their skin.

"I don't deliberation it spoken astir capable that women conflict with their bodies and they conflict with self-love," she said.

"Curvy is the caller sexy, and I'd truly similar women to perceive and judge that they tin beryllium sexy too."

Becoming mum

When Holly was conscionable 16 years old, she recovered retired that she was pregnant, 3 weeks earlier she gave birth.

"I'd gone from having this cleanable teen life, to abruptly having truthful overmuch responsibility," she said.

"It was precise daunting and it was precise scary, but I deliberation portion of maine ever wanted to beryllium a mum, truthful erstwhile I recovered retired I was pregnant, I thought 'Maybe this volition beryllium the making of me'."

Holly revealed that she had had periods passim her full pregnancy, and lone ended up doing a trial aft her mum became suspicious arsenic she had started gaining weight.

"When it came backmost positive, I thought surely not, that indispensable beryllium faulty," she said.

"And past I did different one, and different one.

"I retrieve really astir fainting and thinking, 'oh my God, is this a dream?'"

Holly said that her parents were "devastated" astatine first, arsenic they didn't deliberation their small miss was aged capable to person a baby, but said their hearts melted erstwhile they saw her son.

"Everyone pulled together, and we made this cleanable surrounding for this astonishment babe coming into the world," she said.

When her babe was born, Holly had to permission college, but she went backmost conscionable six months aboriginal to proceed her studies.

"I ne'er wanted to beryllium a mum that couldn't supply for my children," she says.

"I ever wanted to beryllium that mum that my kids look astatine and think, 'mum made it connected her own', and that is precisely what I did."

Holly said that she recovered juggling parenting and going to assemblage highly challenging, but added that she didn't consciousness similar she missed retired connected being a teenager, arsenic she was ne'er overmuch of a drinker.

"I enjoyed being a mum that overmuch that my beingness each of a abrupt conscionable became astir maine and my son," she said.

"It didn't adjacent click successful my caput astatine immoderate constituent that I had to effort and inactive support up with what everyone other was doing my age."

At 19, Holly unexpectedly became large again, and gave commencement to her "bonkers" girl Daisy.

Daisy was initially a twin, and Holly unluckily miscarried the baby, without adjacent knowing.

"My beingness would person been truthful different," she said.

Holly present has a palmy quality concern which she does from her ain home, meaning that she tin look aft her 2 children portion making cash.

"They're inactive successful their location mounting and blessed astatine location portion mum's hustling upstairs and throwing girls into lashes."