Louise Thompson says she’ll ‘never have the perfect family’ as she discusses battle with secondary infertility

LOUISE Thompson has told of her heartbreak astir ne'er being capable to person the "perfect family" pursuing her traumatic wellness battle.

The erstwhile Made successful Chelsea prima has secondary infertility - and won't beryllium capable to transportation a kid again.

Despite dreams of having 4 children, the condition means the inability to conceive oregon transportation a babe to word aft antecedently giving birth.

Louise wrote successful You Magazine: "As the 3rd twelvemonth approached, I could consciousness thing bigger than a enactment looming implicit me: the information that I volition ne'er person the 'perfect family' I ever thought I would.

"Nothing emphasises the passing of clip similar your child’s birthday, and I can't contradict that erstwhile I look astir astatine different friends popping retired countless children, it hits location that this is not a world for us.

"I ever imagined I'd person 4 children. I loved the thought of a large household with tons of sound and antithetic personalities.

"People said it would beryllium hard work, but I liked the thought of each sibling bringing up the 1 down them. I wanted to beryllium similar the Von Trapps. This volition ne'er beryllium my life.

"I utilized to judge that if you enactment hard capable you tin execute anything, but that's not true: I volition ne'er beryllium capable to spell backmost and hole what happened to me.

"There volition ever beryllium a sadness that I won't acquisition childbirth again. That sadness is simply a portion of who I americium present and I request to larn however to instrumentality it guardant into the remainder of my life."

Sadly, Louise ended up successful infirmary aft penning her thoughts astir her health ordeal.

She was rushed successful for exigency country 11 months aft her stoma container cognition - leaving her fiance Ryan Libbey "broken".

The 34-year-old went into septic daze post-surgery

Ryan said: "I can't judge we're backmost successful this situation.

"My bosom bushed is skipping astir each implicit the spot which is an denotation of however dense and earthy it each feels.

"It's precise unexpected and a hard pill to swallow."