Maura Higgins chokes back tears sharing heartbreaking regret over best friend's death

Maura Higgins, who is acceptable to go an I'm A Celebrity... Get Me Out Of Here! campmate, revealed she wished she had acted otherwise connected the time of her champion friend's tragic passing

Love Island prima Maura Higgins suffered a tremendous nonaccomplishment earlier uncovering fame, and adjacent blamed herself for what happened.

The TV personality, 33, is acceptable to shingle things up successful the I'm A Celebrity... Get Me Out Of Here! jungle arsenic she arrives connected Thursday, alongside Reverand Richard Coles. As she landed Down Under up of her ITV appearance, Maura told the Mirror: "I person nary hint what clip it is, I don't cognize wherever I am. In fact, I've done the other of preparing myself [for the jungle].

"I've tried not to deliberation astir it, because erstwhile I deliberation astir it, I get truthful overmuch anxiety." The erstwhile ringing miss has antecedently opened up astir her intelligence health, and the harrowing nonaccomplishment of her champion friend.

She has bravely spoken retired astir however overmuch her position connected beingness changed aft her pal Andrew Rowan, aged conscionable 26, tragically died successful a postulation collision successful Co Athlone, Ireland successful 2017. The calamity forced her to alteration her outlook for the aboriginal arsenic she realised conscionable however abbreviated beingness tin be.

Maura devastatingly shared she blamed herself for Andrew's decease and inactive struggles with those feelings to this day. "For truthful agelong I blamed myself for it due to the fact that erstwhile I look backmost astatine that day, the time was truthful crazy," she said. "I can't enactment my caput astir it. He called maine and he'd finished enactment early, which wasn't truly meant to happen. He was similar 'I person finished enactment early, lets drawback immoderate food'. I was similar 'I can't beryllium f***ed, I americium inactive successful my pyjamas I truly can't beryllium f***ed'."

Speaking to Paul Carrick Brunson connected his We Need to Talk podcast, Maura explained: "I americium not arsenic atrocious arsenic I was with it but I inactive deliberation 'why didn't I conscionable spell with him'. He wouldn't person been connected the motorbike, we would person been successful his car, we would person got nutrient and possibly the time would person been different."

She past became affectional arsenic she admitted her feelings of guilt. "I don't privation to cry. I americium truthful not a crier arsenic well. I deliberation I conscionable bushed myself up implicit it due to the fact that it would person been different." Paul asked Maura if she genuinely blames herself to this day, to which she replied: "I conscionable cognize it would person been antithetic if I conscionable got f***ing dressed and wasn't truthful lazy."

Maura revealed she had seen Andrew connected the time helium died. She remembered: "I didn't spell for the meal but I inactive saw him that day. I volition ne'er hide him arriving connected the motorcycle and I retrieve consecutive distant saying 'why are you connected the bike?' He's not a biker and each clip helium was connected it, I conscionable didn't understand. I conscionable didn't similar it. He was similar 'it's a large day, it is simply a beauteous time outside'.

"I volition ne'er hide erstwhile helium near helium said helium was going to instrumentality a thrust connected the bike. I went into the toilet and I could perceive his motorbike and I got these shivers. I retrieve reasoning to myself, 'Maura halt reasoning bad'. Then a fewer hours aboriginal I get a telephone call. It is specified a weird time erstwhile I look back."

Recalling the infinitesimal she heard of Andrew's death, Maura admitted she didn't judge it. She called Andrew's telephone "maybe 100 times" and confessed she "physically couldn't stop". Her ex fellow was the 1 to archer her the tragic quality arsenic she said she knew it was existent "immediately" erstwhile she saw his face.

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