STARING astatine the CCTV footage playing connected her telephone screen, mum-of-two Sarah Jones felt bile emergence successful her throat.
Her fellow of 19 months, Daniel Blight, 37, was throwing her astir similar a rag doll portion she was passed out.
But what followed was overmuch worse arsenic Sarah, 39, saw the antheral she loved rape her portion she was unconscious.
It confirmed Sarah’s worst suspicions. Just days earlier she’d caught a glimpse of a representation connected Blight’s telephone that showed him grinning successful beforehand of her bare backstage parts.
Sarah from Aberdare, South Wales, had nary recollection of the photograph being taken.
When she queried erstwhile the bizarre representation had been taken, helium brushed implicit her question, claiming he'd snapped it post-sex, the nighttime earlier - but she felt gaslighted, definite that wasn't the case.
Waiving her close to anonymity to talk to Fabulous, Sarah says: “To spot the antheral who I loved, and I thought loved me, onslaught maine successful specified a brutal mode was horrific.
“It was depraved, vile, sick and twisted.
"Although we'd had sex, I knew helium hadn't taken immoderate pictures," she says. "I felt confused and it made maine consciousness truly uneasy."
It was this unease which led to java store idiosyncratic Sarah, checking the Hive camera - which portion focused connected the beforehand doorway besides covered a conception of the surviving country - the precise adjacent time erstwhile Blight was retired of the house.
“He wouldn’t person adjacent considered I would person checked it,” she says. “But I felt truthful uncertain.”
So, starting from the opening of the footage, she whizzed done until she deed midnight and saw thing she didn’t recognise.
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It was past she realised conscionable however betrayed she’d been.
Because, arsenic she slept peacefully connected the sofa, seemingly harmless successful her ain home, Blight sexually assaulted her doubly and past raped her.
After Sarah woke, Blight stood determination with his boxers astir his ankles and they had consensual sex.
“It was depraved,” she says. “I felt truthful betrayed - helium truly is disgusting.”
Bravely recounting the video footage she witnessed of herself being raped, Sarah - who was successful Swansea Crown Court successful June this twelvemonth to spot him convicted of 2 counts of intersexual battle and 1 number of rape - says: "For an hr Dan pulled maine astir similar a rag doll, taking selfies successful beforehand of my privates and abusing me.
I couldn’t judge what I was watching. This was idiosyncratic I trusted. I was disgusted
Sarah Jones
"I was dormant successful my ain home, I should’ve been safe.
“But Dan was a monster.
"I watched Dan propulsion up my nightie and battle me. I looked similar a dormant assemblage arsenic helium dragged maine around. I had nary thought however I stayed asleep..
“Then helium took pictures successful beforehand of my privates. It was sickening.
“I couldn’t judge what I was watching. This was idiosyncratic I trusted. I was disgusted.
"It was specified a monolithic maltreatment of trust. He was my spouse and helium claimed to emotion me."
Sarah, who met Blight successful June 2021 connected a dating website wherever the brace bonded implicit their emotion of indie music, told however she ever suspected him of having a occupation with sex.
Even though they weren’t intimate until 2 months into their narration helium would “look astatine porn online.”
“I caught him staring astatine a woman’s bum successful choky shorts successful the supermarket excessively and told him not to,” Sarah says.
She didn't instantly study him to the constabulary aft watching the CCTV due to the fact that she was successful shock.
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Instead, wanting to face him to spot what helium had to say, she texted a clip of the video zoomed successful of her with her eyes firmly unopen to him and helium soon admitted she was asleep.
"I ended the narration which was truly hard due to the fact that I loved and trusted him and helium begged maine not to study him to the police," she says.
"That made maine consciousness atrocious for him, truthful I agreed. We had a bully narration up until past though Dan was ever obsessed with sex.”
Despite his horrific actions, successful December 2022 she got backmost unneurotic with him.
“He was truly apologetic, said helium had made a immense mistake and promised ne'er to bash it again… helium told maine helium was getting therapy for his enactment addiction,” she says.
But aft waking to Blight pawing astatine her 1 night, Sarah ended things and reported his assaults.
“I realised helium was sick and twisted,” she says.
In January 2023, Blight, 37, of Swansea, was arrested but pleaded not blameworthy and claimed helium believed helium had implied consent for enactment with Sarah.
In June this year, during the trial, Blight’s barrister claimed the nighttime was an “act of worship” towards Sarah and that helium believed helium had consent.
However, the assemblage recovered him blameworthy of 2 counts of intersexual battle by penetration and 1 number of rape.
He was jailed for 7 years with a 10-year restraining bid imposed.
Sarah says: “Dan took vantage of maine successful the worst mode arsenic I slept.
“He’s thing but a vile predator.
“Now I privation others who person suffered maltreatment to talk retired and cognize they volition beryllium believed and execute justice.
“Dan was obsessed with sex. When we archetypal met helium admitted to having a precocious enactment thrust and that helium watched porn, too.
“But arsenic clip went connected his changeless request for enactment was exhausting.
"I conscionable request to retrieve Dan was a full monster. I privation different intersexual offence survivors to realise they should ne'er beryllium ashamed - they are brave, similar me.
“If I'm honorable I'm inactive trying to afloat process what happened.
“It has affected my spot successful everyone, and I consciousness truthful anxious and vulnerable. I utilized to beryllium precise sociable and enjoyed going retired with friends, present I thin to debar mixing with people.
“I'm disquieted astir what the aboriginal whitethorn hold. How tin I person spot successful a aboriginal relationship? Invite idiosyncratic into my location again?”