A dying lad whispered a acceptable of numbers to his mum - which she discovered was a codification to uncover a connection from him aft helium passed.
Jay Kennedy’s parent Dawn realised her lad was giving her the password to his mobile phone. After Jay, 20, died from an incurable encephalon tumour, Dawn was comforted to unfastened what she describes arsenic a “love enactment from heaven”.
Jay was diagnosed with an incurable precocious people astrocytoma - a brain tumour - aft a seizure, headaches and vomiting aged 18. Despite aggregate surgeries, radiotherapy and chemotherapy Jay died with his household by his side.
But successful his last week helium had repeated a bid of digits to Dawn, 54, who aft unlocking his telephone recovered a papers wherever Jay had been journaling since helium recovered retired helium would die.
Dawn, a farmer, from Ayr, Scotland, said: “The timestamps showed helium began penning conscionable days aft the doctors told america his chemo had stopped moving and determination were nary much options.
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Kennedy household / SWNS)“It’s overwhelming to deliberation helium focused connected helping america cope, penning a diary to reassure us. It’s arsenic if helium knew however overmuch we would request his words to transportation connected and I tin ne'er convey him capable for it. It’s a emotion enactment from heaven.”
Jay had a abrupt seizure successful January 2020 portion astatine Strathclyde University but scans showed thing wrong. But erstwhile Jay came location for the Covid lockdown helium started having terrible headaches, sickness and nausea.
Dawn decided to instrumentality him to A&E successful May 2020 - wherever helium had further scans which revealed a apt cancerous wide connected his brain.
They were blue-lighted to Queen Elizabeth University Hospital, Glasgow, and Jay was taken for country to region 94% of the orangish sized tumour.
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Kennedy household / SWNS)A biopsy formally diagnosed Jay with an incurable precocious people astrocytoma - quality which Jay chose to perceive himself archetypal earlier relaying to his family.
Dawn said: “We walked successful and I conscionable knew. He said ‘it’s not bully news’. He told america it arsenic incurable. He articulated it each out. The surgeon said ‘you’ve got 1 outstanding young man’.”
Jay was unchangeable aft rounds of radiotherapy and chemotherapy but the household recovered retired the crab had regrown successful a caller tract successful December 2020. Dawn said: “His equilibrium started going.”
He had different encephalon country to region that wide but successful summertime 2021 the household were fixed the devastating quality the crab had grown backmost successful a 3rd site.
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Katielee Arrowsmith / SWNS)This clip country was not an enactment and Jay could lone effort a chemotherapy which had a 10% accidental of working. Dawn said: “He was truly weakened.”
In August 2021, Jay was told the chemotherapy was not moving and helium knew helium didn’t person agelong left. Unbeknownst to his household helium began penning successful a diary each time for his household to work aft his death.
Some of his entries read: “The crushed I’m not frightened of dying is that, if I had the prime of my beingness from 0 - 20 oregon an mean beingness to 80 I’d take excavation each time.
“I indispensable find the spot to archer mum this… I can’t deliberation of a azygous happening I’d alteration from my puerility due to the fact that it was honestly perfect.
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Kennedy household / SWNS)“As agelong arsenic I accent that I wouldn’t swap my beingness for anyone’s I’ll person done what I acceptable retired to with this journal… “I don’t privation radical feeling atrocious for maine arsenic I couldn’t person dreamt of a amended upbringing ‘what is grief if not emotion persevering’ is 1 of my favourite quotes which I anticipation mum, dada and Blair tin travel to emotion arsenic overmuch arsenic me.”
Dawn remembers Jay repeating numbers to her successful his last week - and made definite she wrote them down. She twigged the digits wherever his telephone password and decided to look astatine his telephone conscionable a mates of days earlier helium passed away.
She said: “My bosom leapt retired erstwhile I opened it. He had enactment the papers connected the location page. He knew what grief was. He knew what we were going to face. He’d hoped we’d manage.”
“I’m not definite anyone volition ever work this but anticipation it gets recovered astatine immoderate point.
“My sanction is Jay Kennedy and I person encephalon cancer. I precocious got told that the attraction I’m connected isn’t moving truthful I don’t truly cognize however agelong I’ll unrecorded for (hopefully agelong aft I benignant this).
“I’ll purpose to benignant present erstwhile I tin and anticipation to archer idiosyncratic successful my household wherever to find this should oregon erstwhile I die.
“I felt it mightiness beryllium easier to explicit my thoughts present alternatively than talking to my family… The information is, I don’t truly get upset astir myself dying but however my household volition cope. Although I cognize my household volition manage, I inactive worry.
“I cognize Mum volition spot tiny coincidences and cognize that it’s maine giving her a motion from above, which gives maine comfort.
“‘I’d alternatively unrecorded with them missing me, than them surviving missing me’ – I deliberation this sums up however I consciousness astir crab perfectly.
“The lone happening I caput astir dying and the crab is knowing my household and friends volition person to woody with the pain.
“‘Don’t outcry that it’s over, beryllium blessed it happened’ – different 1 of my favourite quotes. One past thought is I tin ideate Mum speechmaking this erstwhile she’s Granny’s property and smiling, truthful I’ll accidental I emotion you, Mum, nighttime night xx”
Dawn was holding Jay’s manus erstwhile helium slipped distant astatine location successful his chamber connected October 8, 2021. Since Dawn, her hubby Bryan and lad Blair person leaned connected Jay’s words to support going and person raised much than £100k for respective charities including Brain Tumour Research.
Dawn is present sharing immoderate of Jay’s diary entries to rise consciousness and springiness Jay his voice. She said: “He starts it by saying ‘I’m not definite if anyone volition ever work this but I anticipation it gets recovered astatine immoderate constituent but my sanction is Jay Kennedy and I person encephalon cancer’. It’s his words - that’s much almighty than thing I tin say.”
Dawn has besides written her ain diary each time since Jay got his diagnosis. She said: “It pushes america on. It has fixed spot to people.”
Ashley McWilliams, Community Development Manager astatine Brain Tumour Research, said: “Jay’s parting acquisition to his household speaks volumes astir his character.
“His diary is simply a testament to his emotion and resilience, and we are profoundly grateful to Dawn and her household for their unthinkable support.
“Their fundraising is simply a beacon of anticipation for implicit 16,000 radical who are diagnosed with a encephalon tumour each year, helping america get person to uncovering a cure.”
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