THE SEX DIARIES: OK, I admit it - in my age-gap relationship, I'm the drooling middle-aged man and Eliot's the beautiful young thing...

Mummeeee what are you doing? I request to amusement you something!’ My six-year aged girl Emi was hammering connected my chamber door, which, unusually, I’d locked successful the mediate of the afternoon.

‘I’m…’ my caput was whirring. I stared astatine myself successful a panic. What was I doing?

I was really successful the mediate of trying to instrumentality a sexy photograph for Eliot, earlier helium went distant for a month. At that precise moment, I was fractional in, fractional retired of a madly costly Agent Provocateur basque I’d bought online without knowing however galore hooks and eyes it had. The basque was smaller than I thought – oregon I was bigger – truthful each clip I got 5 of the hooks into the eyes, different 5 popped undone.

‘I’m busy!’ I said to Emi desperately.

‘Busy doing what?’

I was engaged being a azygous mum-of-three and a woman to 1 blistery younger feline — not that I could archer her that.

I had already hoovered each portion of the location contiguous and tidied up the soiled bowls near extracurricular 15-year-old Hector’s country for the servant (me) to remove. And now, I had to instrumentality sexy photos for Eliot.

Over the people of our narration Eliot and I had exchanged tons of photographs; he’d sent ugly/cute ones of himself from random angles, I’d sent him lone the astir glamorous of me, taken from supra truthful that gravity erased my lines.

Occasionally, if we were texting goodnight, I’d sent him topless pictures of maine successful furniture – besides from above. He ne'er asked for them, but I liked doing it to punctual him I was present and blistery connected the extremity of the phone.

Although the stereotype is that young men are sending unsolicited pictures of themselves non-stop, Eliot is careful, respectful, and rather shy. He wasn’t the benignant to nonstop thing without being asked (and sometimes refused adjacent erstwhile helium was).

But helium was beauteous and sexy, and I loved to look astatine him erstwhile we weren’t unneurotic – which was often. Exchanging pictures made america consciousness closer, and added spice to my different home life.

Yet portion my erstwhile photos taken successful the midst of our sexting sessions whitethorn person been artfully angled, I’d ne'er taken an existent bona fide sexy selfie – 1 requiring lipstick, stockings and heels.

There were nary smartphones successful the aboriginal 2000s erstwhile I was past dating; I was joined with tiny children by the clip intimate photos were doing the rounds – and by then, my ex-husband Simon and I wanted to spot little of each other, not more.

Now present I was, successful my precocious 40s, successful a basque that was much similar an instrumentality of torture, struggling with the close angle. Bits of soma I didn’t cognize I had bulged retired betwixt the costly ribbons that ran up and down my back. I couldn’t get the suspenders to fasten, and my thighs were mottled supra the stocking rim.

I tried antithetic poses. If I took a photograph implicit my shoulder, much of my bum was successful changeable (good) and little of my resting bitch look (also good). I was amazed to spot that my rear looked appealing.

Having conquered the outfit, I could spot that the hourglass signifier of the basque was flattering, and stockings are ever sexy. I knelt connected the furniture and tried a pout. The airs was good; the pout terrible. I threw my caput back, with a come-hither vibe. Better!

I pushed my boobs forward; besides good. I tilted my head, opened my mouth, stuck retired my tongue, trying to beryllium playful. Not excessively bad... OK, present lasting legs isolated successful sexy authoritarian mode – click!

It was rather thrilling to beryllium successful my costly basque, conjuring up my astir sexy persona. Not similar my mean beingness astatine all.

Over the adjacent month, Eliot referenced the photos a lot. It made our sexting much existent and personal, and it was flattering that helium loved them.

And successful return, each clip helium got backmost from the gym, I asked him for a photo. For me, Eliot successful his workout cogwheel is the equivalent of my lingerie; I emotion to spot him successful his shorts and vest, sweat connected his brow. I marque him clench his muscles for maine successful the mirror, which look adjacent bigger aft a workout. He flexes his biceps, shows maine his lats, pumps his chest. It’s breathtaking to cognize that a lad similar him is mine.

If I’m honest, it’s maine who is the drooling middle-aged antheral successful our relationship, and helium who is the young beauteous thing. He loves maine for my brains, my girl-boss life-juggling skills. And hopefully my bum, too.

• Annabel Bond is simply a pseudonym. Names person been changed