'Don't forget me. I'll meet you in the Garden of Eden': The heartbreaking words of Nova festival survivor to dead husband as she joins families at October 7 massacre site one year on

'I had to travel present contiguous to adjacent a chapter,' says Nova subsister Yovel Sharvit Trabelsi from the tract of the massacre.

The 27-year-old returned to Re'im for the archetypal clip contiguous since the emotion of her beingness was changeable dormant successful beforehand of her eyes present - precisely 1 period aft their wedding day.

She was trapped nether his assemblage for 5 hours, forced to perceive arsenic terrorists raped a pistillate and executed her metres away.

Yovel was near truthful traumatised she was incapable to get retired of bed, but she made a committedness to her precocious hubby that she would go a 'lioness' for him – conscionable arsenic helium wanted.

As portion of her quest she enactment connected a almighty show astatine a manner amusement for Nova survivors past twelvemonth covered by the Daily Mail.

Our images went circular the satellite showing her with a slug coiled successful her head, symbolising the decease of her husband, and a formal covered successful hands arsenic notation to the rape.

Now, a twelvemonth connected from that atrocious day, she returned to the country of the massacre arsenic portion of her 'rebirth'.

'It each came backmost to maine today,' she told the Daily Mail. 'I remembered each the roads arsenic I drove successful – however we were successful the car, laughing, listening to music.'

Yovel had joined Mor Meir Trabelsi, 27, precisely 1 period earlier successful a immense ceremonial 'full of emotion and happiness'. 'In retrospect, our wedding enactment was a farewell enactment for Mor,' she says.

Minutes aft arriving astatine the Nova festival, Hamas gunmen stormed the venue. Mor desperately tried to thrust them to safety, but helium was changeable successful the caput and killed instantly.

The car rolled implicit and smashed into the ditch, landing upside down – and sending his lifeless assemblage connected apical of Yovel, trapping her underneath.

Here she sat, silently, hugging Mor's corpse for 5 hours. Yovel took his humor and wiped it connected herself to play dead.

She listened helplessly arsenic pistillate hostages were dragged into Gaza, screaming retired for help.

She heard terrorists shooting the bodies strewn on the road, successful lawsuit they were alive. Then she heard the rape.

'Her hubby was alive, they made him ticker them rape her,' she said. 'I was truthful afraid. Afraid they would perceive me.

'I heard her screams, and I inactive perceive her screams successful my nightmares. To this day, I perceive that pistillate successful my head.

'She begged for assistance and I couldn't assistance – I couldn't… it's truthful hard.

'The terrorists were truthful happy, determination were shouts of joy. I can't archer you what precisely they were saying, but it sounded similar they were arrogant of their act.

'The pistillate was crying due to the fact that she was successful specified pain. She was screaming, "Stop tearing my apparel off!" These are words I volition ne'er forget.

'After they raped her they enactment her and the hubby successful the car and fired an RPG astatine it. They killed them, blew them up.

'It indispensable person lasted for 20 minutes, but I could not archer you. I had nary consciousness of clip due to the fact that of the fearfulness I was in. That clip felt similar an eternity.'

Yovel's friends Shira Perets, 27, and Shahar Loka, 29, were successful the car and survived the crash.

'We each hid,' she says. 'My person looked astatine maine throughout. They were whispering, "Be quiet, beryllium quiet, beryllium quiet."'

Finally, aft 5 hours the IDF came and rescued them – but they were incapable to instrumentality Mor's assemblage arsenic terrorists remained successful the area.

'It was the hardest infinitesimal of my life,' says Yovel.

'I told him I was sorry. I asked Mor for forgiveness and I kissed him for the past time. I said, "Don't hide me, I volition conscionable you successful the Garden of Eden."

'I knew helium wanted much than thing for maine to beryllium live and to beryllium safe, helium would person wanted maine to go. It's what helium would person wanted, for maine to prevention my life.

'Now the astir important happening is to proceed to unrecorded my life.'

Yovel has been near profoundly traumatised by the horrors that she witnessed that day.

'I consciousness similar a babe learning to walk,' she says. 'No-one prepared maine for this, I was not taught however to unrecorded with specified trauma oregon however to woody with that.

'At archetypal I was successful furniture astir of the time. I didn't privation to eat, I didn't privation to work, I didn't privation to spell out.

'I had specified anxiousness and panic attacks. My bosom was ever racing. I was successful infirmary for 10 days.'

But yet she decided she would marque herself better, successful honour of her husband.

'Mor saved me, helium has fixed maine this beingness arsenic a gift. He was a affirmative idiosyncratic and helium wanted maine to instrumentality that from him.

'His affirmative psyche is present with me, it is keeping maine strong. I americium definite that helium wants maine to beryllium a lioness.'

Returning to Re'im was a 'milestone' for Yovel. 'I needed to adjacent a chapter,' she said. 'I needed to get this value disconnected me.

'It felt similar for the archetypal clip I was breathing cleanable air. I adjacent smiled aft this.

'October 7 is the time I mislaid Mor, but present it is besides the time oregon rebirth for me.'

Yovel travelled to the work astatine Re'im with her household and Mor's parents, Linda Trabelsi, 55, and her hubby Baruch, 57.

At 6.29am, the nonstop clip the rocket onslaught started, the past way from the Nova festival was played yesterday successful representation of those who died.

'When I heard that I remembered the past hug helium gave me,' says Yovel. 'I felt it. It was a truly beardown hug.'

They lit a candle astatine a memorial for Mor and each remembered him successful their ain way. All astir them were hundreds of photos of the others who died that day.

'It is the archetypal clip I saw each the different photographs,' she says. 'All this twelvemonth my full caput has been connected what happened to Mor.

'Now I americium reasoning astir my friends. I mislaid 2 precise bully miss friends that time too, Liron Barda and Shani Ben Ami. They were 27.

'I thought, I can't judge I mislaid these friends and I didn't adjacent deliberation astir it. It each deed my astatine once.'

They past saw Liron who was moving astatine the barroom 3 minutes earlier the attack. 'We got to the enactment astatine 6.13am.

'Me and Mor went to Liron and we did a cheers together. This is my past representation of her. Today she is successful the Garden of Eden with Mor.'

Yovel has precocious started studying manner illustration and says she is increasing 'day by day'.

'I request to get a small spot of happiness backmost into my life. I person started to formal decently. I person started to attraction astir my quality more.

'In the aboriginal I privation to archer excavation and Mor's communicative each implicit Israel, but present I americium blessed to beryllium capable to get retired of furniture each day.

'Some days I'm happy, different days I'm sad. It changes – I person nary power implicit it. I tin aftermath up successful the greeting and outcry and I tin aftermath up successful the greeting and smile.'

But portion she says she is committed connected surviving her beingness successful Mor's honour, determination is lone 1 spot she genuinely wants to be.

'I told his parent today, each I would bash if I could ever get the chance, would beryllium backmost there, holding his body, cuddling him again for those 5 hours.

'I conscionable privation I could spell backmost to that moment.'

Israel's president Isaac Herzog, who was accompanied by his woman Michal, told mourners: 'This is simply a scar connected humanity, this is simply a scar connected the look of the earth.'

Before the minute's soundlessness for the victims, organisers played the past way from the festival that time successful representation of those who had died. 

'Ten minutes ago, I was fine. Then I heard the way and I felt him present – I was dancing with him,' said Yoram Yehudai, whose lad Ron, 24, was killed.

Ron was changeable dormant alongside 8 different radical who were hiding successful a rubbish dumpster. Another 7 survived.

After the ceremony, the families recited Kaddish, the mourners' prayer. Some gave speeches reflecting connected the massacre.

'It's the archetypal clip I person been backmost to Nova since past year,' said subsister Shelly Ishai. 'I was shaking driving up the road, but it was important to beryllium present today.' While Shelly managed to fly successful a car, 2 of her friends died.

Those who attended were shaken arsenic explosions sounded adjacent successful Gaza – a reminder of the struggle which the massacre ignited connected October 7.

'There isn't a time I don't cry, but astatine slightest we person a sedate to visit,' said Yuval, 70, whose grandson Eliran Mizrahi, 23, and his fiance Maya Bitton, 22, died.'Many of the hostage families don't cognize wherever their household is. It's a surviving hell.'