Jeffrey Dahmer used me as his ‘guinea pig’ for rapes and killing spree – I’m haunted by the night I vowed to murder him

CHATTING astir euphony to his caller roommate Jeffrey Dahmer, 17 year-old Billy Capshaw felt definite the brace would get along.

Little did helium cognize the blond-haired, spectacled antheral lasting earlier him would spell connected to go 1 of the world’s astir notorious serial killers - and had already murdered erstwhile the twelvemonth before. 

The monster would spell connected to kill 16 much men, revelling successful their torture, dismemberment and successful immoderate cases, eating their assemblage parts.

Right now, though, his attraction had turned to youthful young service medic Billy.

It was February 1980 and Billy had conscionable been deployed to a US Army base successful Baumholder, West Germany. 

Speaking from his location successful Hot Springs, Arkansas, Billy tells The Sun: “I liked him astatine first. 

“I didn’t cognize what I cognize present - that helium was similar Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde due to the fact that helium could alteration successful a millisecond.

"He was the devil’s champion friend.”

Hours into Billy’s archetypal time connected base, Dahmer invited him for immoderate evening vino successful a section park. Not agelong aft they started drinking, Dahmer turned connected Billy and lunged astatine him. 

Billy says: “I was successful combat oregon flight. I didn’t cognize what to do. I was 17 and like, ‘what the hell?’.”

“My bosom started beating existent fast. I ran from him and helium chased maine successful the woods. I ran similar hell.”

Rushing backmost to the barracks helium barricaded himself successful a toilet arsenic Dahmer continued to hound him and lb the door.

Eventually, the beating stopped and Billy was capable to spell backmost to his country wherever helium recovered Dahmer asleep.

Yet, the adjacent day, aft duties connected base, was acold worse. 

Billy says: “He was sitting connected the bunk, drinking much vodka. He’s getting drunker and drunker and each of a abrupt helium attacks maine again. He threw maine astir similar a bedewed rag. He’s trying to instrumentality my apparel disconnected and past helium raped maine and I couldn’t halt it.”

Traumatised by the ordeal, Billy jumped retired of their third-floor model to escape. He was recovered by officers connected the crushed with a fractured pelvis.

At the subject infirmary helium described his attack. He was asked to usage a rape kit to supply evidence, but says nary probe was conducted. 

Worse still, aft Dahmer himself showed up astatine the infirmary to quash Billy’s story, helium was returned to their country to look yet much torment that day.

From determination connected in, the intersexual assaults escalated. Billy was often beaten with a portion of robust piping. He was tied up with enactment and drugged with a sedative for days connected end. 

As soon arsenic Jeffrey started drinking his usuals - gin, martinis and orangish vodka he’d sip from a Fanta vessel - Billy knew what was successful store.

Detailing the horrors helium went done successful the documentary I Escaped A Murderer, helium recalls: “I  begged him and screamed to permission maine alone.”

Billy was relieved from duties to retrieve from his injuries but it conscionable enabled Dahmer to power him adjacent more. He kept him drugged and imprisoned successful his service room. Dahmer intercepted message from his household and controlled his nutrient intake. 

As a chap service medic, Jeffrey knew conscionable the close doses of cause to give, to sound Billy retired without sidesplitting him.

He agrees helium was, perhaps, the trial tally for Dahmer’s aboriginal killings. 

He says: “I was perfectly his guinea pig for him to bash what helium liked with. I couldn’t over-power him but I would scream. 

“I told my sergeant. He lived conscionable crossed the hallway from maine and helium didn’t bash nothing.

“Everyone needs to recognize however the subject works. There are immoderate things you conscionable don’t say. Rape is 1 of them, backmost successful 1980.

“No 1 did a thing. I recovered retired from a caregiver aboriginal connected that they conscionable discarded the rape kits.” 

Another chilling memory, astir 7 months into Billy’s ordeal, sticks successful his mind.

Billy says: “He’d been astatine a festival and helium came into our country covered successful humor and determination was a batch of it. You cannot get that benignant of humor connected you by a cut. It reeked of murder.”

Deadly plot

Seven months in, Billy decided to termination Dahmer with a metallic barroom bunk furniture adaptor from their room.

As Dahmer laic successful a drunken slumber, Billy pounded his furniture post, but couldn’t transportation through.

Today, helium admits: “I conscionable couldn’t halt reasoning astir my mum and however incorrect that was but I transportation truthful overmuch guilt that I didn’t termination Dahmer. A batch of radical died and adjacent aft helium near I recovered retired wherever helium was surviving and I was reasoning I’d spell determination and termination him but again I couldn’t.” 

Despite pleas to his superiors, his ordeal lasted 18 months until Dahmer was honourably discharged successful 1981 - not for his maltreatment of Billy but for his alcoholism. 

Billy says: “I emotion God. I prayed truthful hard erstwhile I was successful that room, it's unbelievable. God saved my beingness arsenic acold arsenic I’m acrophobic due to the fact that helium got Jeffrey retired of that base.”

Mutilated victims

It took Billy - who was besides discharged from the service connected aesculapian grounds due to the fact that of his ordeal - astir 2 much decades to spell nationalist with his story. 

Dahmer - different known arsenic the Milwaukee Monster oregon the Milwaukee Cannibal - had killed 17 young men and boys successful Wisconsin and Ohio betwixt 1978 and 1991, raping and cannibalizing his victims. 

When helium was arrested, successful 1991,  skulls and frozen genitals were recovered successful his apartment. 

He was convicted of 16 of the murders successful 1992. Billy believes determination are galore much victims than the ones we cognize of.

He says: “Sixteen is conservative. I deliberation it is overmuch higher than what helium was convicted of. 

“He lone admitted to what they found. I deliberation helium was sidesplitting each the time.

“There were 5 women who went missing adjacent the base, each mutilated.

“There was a young child.

“I’ve had messages from a woman looking for her son. He was a Dutch worker who went missing successful Germany astatine the aforesaid clip Dahmer was there.”

Scarred for life

In 1994, Dahmer was murdered successful prison. He was 34. 

It volition beryllium 30 years this November since his death. Yet the carnal and intelligence scars person endured a beingness for Billy.  

He had terrible PTSD for implicit 2 decades with regular flashbacks and nighttime terrors. 

His assemblage is covered with 31 scars. His legs and torso inactive permission him successful agony truthful helium goes to a symptom clinic.

He’s been having therapy for decades and is owed different league consecutive aft our interview. 

He says therapy “saved me” - aft helium attempted to instrumentality his ain beingness 3 times. 

Billy admits: “I person to unrecorded with what helium did to maine and different people, you’ve benignant of got to determination on, but I tin ne'er forgive him.

“He inactive plays connected my mind. It could beryllium a smell, it could beryllium the mode idiosyncratic moves." 

“I was successful Walmart and this feline looked conscionable similar him,” helium adds. "I had this atrocious panic onslaught and I had to get the hellhole retired of there.”

“I had a atrocious panic attack. but I person this full toolbox I usage present to halt myself from reacting. I conscionable got successful my car and went to different Walmart.”

It’s an astir inconceivable magnitude of trauma Billy has carried. Yet helium insists determination is airy astatine the extremity of the tunnel. 

His 7 grandsons support him connected his toes and his full-time vocation is arsenic an unpaid enactment for different victims of trauma and intersexual assault.

He explains: “Retelling the communicative of people I get affectional and it is hard but it is besides precise cathartic. I wouldn't cognize what to bash unless I could assistance someone. 

“I've taken it connected arsenic a career; not a paying career, but arsenic thing I request to do. I person to springiness backmost the contented from each this attraction that I've had.

“The roadworthy to betterment is not a joyful thing. People tin bash it but they person unsmooth times. But, arsenic unusual arsenic it sounds, helping radical with their trauma is what makes maine grin now. 

“My mantra is: ‘Never springiness up’.” 

I Escaped A Murderer airs Wednesday October 2 astatine 10pm connected 5Star. All episodes are disposable to watercourse connected My5.