Jennifer Lopez believes God hit her 'over the head with a f---ing sledgehammer' to leave Ben Affleck

Jennifer Lopez has seen each the tabloid fodder spurred by her achy divorcement from Ben Affleck, but she's not letting it get her down.

"I cognize that everything that’s being written and said astir me, and each the conjecture of who I americium arsenic a person, is not who I am," she said successful a caller speech with comedian Nikki Glaser for Interview magazine.

"I learned that a agelong clip ago. And societal media, due to the fact that it came on aft I had been successful the nationalist oculus for a while, I don’t instrumentality it arsenic earnestly arsenic everybody else. I cognize I’m a bully person. I cognize I’m a bully mom. I cognize who my friends are. I cognize my friends cognize who I am, my mom, my dad, each that stuff. If you anticipation to person a agelong career, you person to larn however to woody with that portion of the business."

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Jennifer Lopez says that she's seen the headlines written astir her. "All the conjecture of who I americium arsenic a person," she says, "is not who I am." (ROBYN BECK/AFP via Getty Images)

"Some radical are going to emotion you and immoderate are not going to recognize you, and immoderate radical conscionable privation to hatred you to hatred you, and nary of that truly matters. What matters for me, arsenic an artist, is doing enactment that inspires maine and that I bask doing, whether it’s a immense commercialized occurrence oregon thing that lone touches 1 idiosyncratic that cipher ever f---ing adjacent sees. It doesn’t matter," she expressed.

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"This is my life’s passion. I emotion to sing. I emotion to dance. I emotion to act. I emotion to entertain. I emotion to create. And thing anybody could accidental astir maine — and delight don’t get maine wrong, if I spot thing that’s hurtful, I’m not Teflon."

Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck were joined for 2 years. (John Shearer/Getty Images for The Recording Academy)

"Some radical are going to emotion you and immoderate are not going to recognize you, and immoderate radical conscionable privation to hatred you to hatred you."

A batch of that wounded has travel from her divorce from Affleck. The 2 reunited aft antecedently ending their archetypal engagement successful 2004, were joined successful 2022, and Lopez filed for divorcement successful 2024. While she doesn’t regret for "one second" getting backmost unneurotic with the antheral she erstwhile called "the emotion of my life," she does accidental the acquisition of splitting up was awful.

"My full f---ing satellite exploded," she said of that time.

Ben Affleck and Jennifer Lopez antecedently dated and were engaged successful the aboriginal 2000s. They officially divided successful 2004, going connected to wed different people. (Kevin Winter/Getty Images)

Lopez noted that having nary regrets "doesn’t mean it didn’t astir instrumentality maine retired for good. It astir did. But now, connected the different broadside of it, I deliberation to myself, ‘F---, that is precisely what I needed. Thank you, god. I’m atrocious it took maine truthful long. I’m atrocious that you had to bash this to maine truthful galore times. I should person learned it 2 oregon 3 times ago. I get it. You had to deed maine truly hard implicit the caput with a f---ing sledgehammer. You dropped the location connected me. Don’t person to bash it again.’"

Lopez has been joined 4 times, archetypal to Ojani Noa, past Cris Judd, followed by the begetter of her children, Marc Anthony. She was engaged to Alex Rodriguez earlier calling things disconnected and rekindling things with Affleck.

Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck are affectionate connected the carpet successful June 2023, astir a twelvemonth earlier the mates split. (Axelle/Bauer-Griffin/FilmMagic/Getty Images)

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The parent of 2 says this caller section of her beingness has been transformative.

"I deliberation that’s what I emotion astir life, that there’s nary accomplishment point. There’s lone getting amended and increasing if you privation to. It’s either increasing oregon dying, and I don’t privation to bash the dying part. And yeah, there’s times erstwhile I thought I figured it out, and past beingness goes, ‘Let’s nonstop you different happening and spot if you autumn for it. Let’s spot if you truly person learned that lesson.’ And I hadn’t," she admitted.

"I recognize that present successful a overmuch deeper way, which doesn’t mean that I won’t marque mistakes successful the future, but again, erstwhile your full location blows up, you’re lasting determination successful the rubble going, ‘How bash I not ever fto that hap again?’ And past you commencement examining it small by small saying, ‘Okay, I did this, this was my portion successful it, this was what I should person seen aboriginal on, this is what I didn’t look at.' Those things are what truly are the lessons."

"Thank you, god. I’m atrocious it took maine truthful long. I’m atrocious that you had to bash this to maine truthful galore times. I should person learned it 2 oregon 3 times ago. I get it. You had to deed maine truly hard implicit the caput with a f---ing sledgehammer."

Jennifer Lopez said she doesn't regret thing from her clip with Ben Affleck. (ROBYN BECK/AFP via Getty Images)

As for however Lopez puts successful the enactment to fig retired those lessons, she told Glaser, "It’s looking backmost astatine the feelings underneath and the content systems that we person astir ourselves that marque america marque definite choices and make definite patterns successful our life."

"And so, erstwhile you get to a constituent wherever you deliberation that you’ve learned the lessons, and past it blows up successful your look again, you realize, 'Okay, I haven’t, truthful what is it that I request to look astatine close now?' I would say, ne'er halt looking inward, due to the fact that it’s truthful casual to blasted everybody else.'

The Grammy-nominated vocalist noted, "You person to beryllium bully connected your own" if you privation to person a narration that's "more complete."

"I thought I learned that, but I didn’t. And then, this summer, I had to beryllium like, ‘I request to spell disconnected and beryllium connected my own. I privation to beryllium to myself that I tin bash that.’"

Jennifer Lopez says she is focusing connected her narration with herself. (Emma McIntyre/Getty Images)

The "On the Floor" vocalist says "the astir important" relationships successful her beingness astatine the infinitesimal are the ones with God and herself.

"The narration with yourself, for me, is the narration with myself being cultivated successful this infinitesimal and my narration with god, that I deliberation we thin to get distant from astatine times, erstwhile you’re wrapped up with different people. And deity has ever been specified a large portion of my life."

Glaser asked Lopez the question everyone wants to know: Is she searching for different large love? "Now, it sounds to maine similar you person a caller barroom for the adjacent idiosyncratic that comes along," Glaser stated.

Jennifer Lopez says, "There’s nary caller barroom due to the fact that I’m not looking for anybody." (Arnold Jerocki/Getty Images)

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"Here’s the thing: There’s nary caller barroom due to the fact that I’m not looking for anybody. How’s that?" Lopez retorted.

Lopez filed for divorcement from Affleck connected Tuesday, Aug. 20, successful Los Angeles County Superior Court, 2 years to the day of their Georgia wedding. She did truthful without a lawyer, Fox News Digital confirmed done tribunal documents. Lopez cited "irreconcilable differences" for the crushed of their split, adding that they'd separated connected April 26.