Jennifer Lopez opens up for first time about 'sad' and 'scary' Ben Affleck breakup

The vocalist and actress, 55, described however her beingness “blew up” successful her look this twelvemonth and reflected connected the lessons she inactive has to larn aft filing for divorcement connected August 20, which was her and Affleck’s 2nd wedding anniversary.

Appearing connected the beforehand screen of Interview magazine to people the publication’s 55th anniversary, Lopez did not sanction Affleck directly, but said she present needed to larn to beryllium connected her own.

She said: “You person to beryllium healthy. You person to beryllium complete, if you privation thing that’s much complete. You person to beryllium bully connected your own. I thought I learned that, but I didn’t. And then, this summer, I had to beryllium like, “I request to spell disconnected and beryllium connected my own. I privation to beryllium to myself that I tin bash that.

“It feels lonely, unfamiliar, scary. It feels sad. It feels desperate,” the Can’t Get Enough hit-maker continued. “But erstwhile you beryllium successful those feelings and go, ‘These things are not going to termination me,’ it’s similar actually, I americium susceptible of joyousness and happiness each by myself. Being successful a narration doesn’t specify me. I can’t beryllium looking for happiness successful different people. I person to person happiness wrong myself. I utilized to accidental I’m a blessed person, but was inactive looking for thing for idiosyncratic other to fill, and it’s conscionable like, ‘No, I’m really good’.

“I recognize that present successful a overmuch deeper way, which doesn’t mean that I won’t marque mistakes successful the future, but again, erstwhile your full location blows up, you’re lasting determination successful the rubble going, ‘How bash I not ever fto that hap again?’”

While Lopez admitted the divided was “f***ing hard,” she is adamant that she has “not 1 second” of regrets astir however things played retired and she is not presently looking to day anyone else.

Lopez and Affleck initially dated successful the aboriginal 2000s aft gathering connected the acceptable of their archetypal movie together, Gigli, which was released successful 2003. They teamed up again successful 2004 for the flick Jersey Girl. Bennifer, arsenic they were often called, came to an extremity not agelong aft they called disconnected their wedding successful 2003. The narration was rekindled successful 2021 earlier marrying successful Las Vegas successful 2022.

In-between that time, Affleck went connected to wed histrion Jennifer Garner, with whom helium shares 3 children – Violet Anne, 18, Fin, 14, and Samuel, 12.

Lopez meantime has 16-year-old twins Emme and Max with ex Marc Anthony.